Saturday, April 27, 2013

Creation Conference 2013

Whew. I have so much to say! I don't even know where to begin (; A couple weekends ago was one of the best experiences of my life. I would say it was the* best, but being born was a pretty great experience too (haha!) What was supposed to be a simple trip, Friday evening and part of the day Saturday- morphed into an awesome three day God experience..

Day One- The Journey Begins


This picture is probably not significant to any of you, but to me it's gorgeous :) We've been studying God's will for our life- and how that will is for us to glorify Him in EVERYTHING we do. Including what we listen to.. being a lover of music and coffee, this picture warms my heart<3
PS- this is inside of our church van...
After approximately two and a half hours riding in the van.. we finally arrived! To an itsy bitsy church. Not what you were expecting? No, it wasn't what we were expecting either. We all just sat there, tummy's grumbling (it was 7 pm and we hadn't had dinner yet) for a minute, staring at this tiny church and wondering what kind of conference this was going to turn out to be. We soon discovered that we were 30 minutes early and there was a McDonald's right up the road... so away we went. 40 minutes later, we returned. Now I don't know if y'all have ever experienced this- but when a group of ten makes an entrance into a building that only seats about 100 people in the first place, your entrance does not go unnoticed. So, being the great comedian he is- Creation Today speaker Eric Hovind, from the stage, asked if there was anything he could provide for us.. possibly a watch? Needless to say, our punctuality was a standing joke for the rest of the weekend. ;) Eric immediately dove into God's word and shared truths with us regarding evolution and creation. Did you all know that according to evolution, we all came from an explosion of nothing? Then a couple million years later some rain(which also came from nothing) mixed with the dirt on earth(which also both came from nothing) and created something called primordial soup... that soup was then struck by lightning(which also came from nothing) and life began! Then mister soup found something to eat, and someone to reproduce with. Sound like a very likely story, right?! ;) ha! However, a lot of scientists still believe in the big bang theory. The main questions they can not answer revolve around time, space and matter. God answers all of these questions with 10 simple words in Genesis 1:1 "In the beginning God created the heavens and the earth." God created us all in the image of Himself (Genesis 1:27) and because satan hates God, he also hates us. Satan has used evolution and science as a huge lie to deter people from believing in God. This is a prime example of a quote by Adolf Hitler, "People are more likely to believe a big lie than a small one." This first night of the conference was mainly an introduction to set up a base of our understanding for the sessions to come on Saturday. Eric also shared some interesting statistics with us. For example- "75% of all children who were raised in Christian homes who attend public schools will reject their faith after the first year of college." A lot of these people begin to believe as Joe Blow Skeptic explains, "Religious belief is irrational because of the utter lack of evidence for God's existence." These statements break my heart. Evidence of the God of the universe is EVERYWHERE, if we can only get people to see beyond satan's lies.There are so many stars that every person on earth could own at least 11 trillion of them! For evolution to be true, 16,500 stars would have to be made every second for 13.4 billion years. Eric showed us many mind blowing things that debunk evolution/the big bang and point to intelligent design.
You can check out more about Eric and Creation Today at http://www.creationtoday.org/.

Night One- Making Memories

Not only did Eric explain how these rubber bands
are more effective when shot differently, but he
explained how this technique relates to our spiritual
journey. His rubber band shooting method requires
there to be more tension on one side of the band before
it is released(it really does work a TON better). This is
and example of how the spiritual side of our life should be
a lot more "tight" and relevant than the side of our life that
follows the instincts of our flesh. This concept comes from
Galatians 5:17 which says, "For the flesh desires what is against
the Spirit, and the Spirit desires what is against the flesh; they
are opposed to each other."
  These pictures are all products of the "McDonald's Experience" After Eric's first session on creation, we went to McDonald's for a snack.. Eric showed us all how to shoot rubber bands the most "scientifically" effective way...So of course a giant rubber band war broke out in the parking lot.. Mrs.Trish and I began collecting them ;) Less ammo= less chances we could get hit haha the other pictures are just from us sitting in the parking lot waiting for PT to finish talking so we could leave.. over all it was a great night of fellowship (:








Lyndsey, Savannah, Ashley and I got to share plenty of girl time and giggles in our hotel room.. We laid awake for quite a while and just talked about the things we had learned, and the amazing God that we serve :) I'm so grateful for these sweet life moments.
 


Day Two -The Journey Grows!

Our Group + Eric Hovind :)
The next day was even more impacting than the first, and God really spoke to all of our hearts. Eric taught about the humanistic worldview, which claims that life is about your own happiness. This really stuck out to alot of us, because as Christians, some of this worldview has crept into our churches. I know for me personally this really hit home. How many times do we consider what we can gain from a scenario instead of how it will glorify God? Eric also taught about the religion of atheism.. Mark 3:29 says "But whoever blasphemes against the Holy Spirit never has forgiveness,  but is guilty of an eternal sin." There was a challenge proposed on YouTube for atheists to deny the existence of the Holy Spirit... there are literally hundreds of videos of people claiming this belief. My heart broke. I'm not one for crying, but I cried. The Holy Spirit in me cried. Atheists claim that they are not a religion, yet in some places they hold service similar to "church" and have filed paperwork as a non-profit organization. I will never again defend God, because I was reminded that He is more than capable of defending Himself. However, I will still wholeheartedly defend and exclaim my faith in Him. After the sessions were over, we just weren't ready to leave. We were still hungry for more! God was there and we wanted to be where He was. God had touched us all in a way that was impossible to ignore. Several of us asked PT (our youth pastor) before we had even left the building, if we could follow Eric to the next city he would be teaching in, the very next day. We ended up in a circle in the grass, under a beautiful shade tree- praying. We thanked God for the choice He has given us, for the forgiveness He provides, for the opportunity to learn about Him. We thanked Him for revealing to us His truth that we need in our every day lives. We asked for His guidance. We asked for Him to bring comfort to the Lister family (a family friend of ours passed away the day before on our way to the conference.) We asked for Him to open the hearts and minds of the people we had to call home too, for Him to proceed us and clear the path for us to stay another night and relish in His presence. We received His peace. After we prayed, we all took turns calling home- to parents and people that were expecting us to be helping teach, run sound, and sing at church the following morning. One by one we were all eagerly cleared to stay another night, to follow Eric the next day, to absorb as much knowledge in God's presence as we could. We were ecstatic!

After the prayer I opened my eyes and this little guy had fallen on my leg.. about gave me a heart attack xD
As the day went on, we got to see God's providence over and over! By this time it was about 2 pm and once again we were all very hungry. Because we hadn't planned on staying another day, all of us had not brought money for food. We decided to all put our food money together and go from there. We ended up with $70. We then decided to visit McDonald's AGAIN haha and all ate lunch for a little over $17. We then drove to the next city, to find the church that Eric would be speaking at so that we could make hotel arrangements. We noticed a house that was very close to the church, so we decided to knock and see if they could offer any tips about the area... turns out it was the home of the assistant pastor! He shared with us that there is a great website call priceline and that we could probably get some nice hotel rooms on there for a good price.. he got out his laptop and helped us book rooms! We ended up with three "suites" for $40 each! However, for those of you who have used priceline before you know that they do not tell you what type of beds are in the rooms...but more about that later. Next we went to Publix with our remaining $52 to buy dinner. We all rallied together around the sales papers to discuss what we thought would be best. So, me being the extremely casual person that I am, was sitting in the middle of the floor in Publix with the sales papers spread on the floor and our group huddled around me. Soon a concerned employee wandered up to us because he thought that I was injured (seeing as how I'm extremely clumsy, it wasn't too far fetched haha!) We assured him that I wasn't hurt. He was curious and asked us if we were a Christian Group.. we eagerly replied YES and explained what God was doing in our lives. He continued on to his job and we continued gathering items to make wraps for dinner. A few minutes later, he came walking back by and dropped a $20 bill on top of the things in Mrs.Trish's arms "in the name of God!" (picture below) We had been very careful to pick out only foods that were necessity and foods that we could find coupons for... our total cost ended u being approximately $50. We then set off to find our hotel, which wasn't far from Publix. When we arrived we discovered that our rooms only had one queen bed in each of them.. this turned out to be slightly problematic. Now, for PT & Mrs.Trish's room it was fine because they share a bed. And for the boys room it would be find because we all had a recliner in our room and would move the extras into their room. However, four girls and one queen bed wasn't ideal. Turns out the upgrade to get a room with double beds was $20.. and we had just been blessed with $20! Praise God from Whom all blessings flow <3


Night Two

When we finally got all settled in our hotel room, and filled our tummy's with some yummy turkey& veggie wraps, we sat down to discuss the day. We poured over the scriptures that Eric had shared with us, we discussed them and we shared what God had revealed to us that day. 

This tiny coffee pot was just SO CUTE!
 and of course Lyndsey being the coffee addict that she is, had to buy some coffee creamer(;


The AC in our room kept blowing our curtains up! we couldn't turn the AC vents and we couldn't open the curtains without a ton of light getting in... scared us at first but then we got used to it and giggled about it (:
Day Three- Conviction, Beach, Dinosaurs!
This last day of our journey was just over all an adventure! Lyndsey's family decided to wake up early and drive over to join to hear Eric speak... God continued to provide for us, as they offered to bring us lunch! We also go up early Sunday morning and quickly packed our things before heading over to the church. We got there a little early because they provided breakfast.. and then we headed into the church to find some seats and get settled. Now, I personally, have attended the same church for my entire life. I'm very comfortable there and know almost every one... I help run the sound booth and frequently walk around the church grounds barefoot. So being at another church, to say the least, was an eye opener. Because of the spontaneous addition of another night to our trip, none of us had packed church clothes. So here we are, at a church we've never been, with very well dressed people that we have never met.. in jeans and t-shirts. So naturally we just slip into the back of the church and go unnoticed, right? Wrong! PT decided that we should sit on the second row! On top of that, very few people greeted us, and when the worship part of the service rolled around, I found myself feeling rather awkward. I love worshipping my Jesus, I close my eyes, tilt my head back, raise my hands and sing. I don't have a very good voice, but I don't care.. because God made me and my voice and He finds it beautiful no matter if it's up to the rest of the worlds standards. Anyways, about halfway through the first song, I realized that other in the congregation were not raising there hands.. and the awkward feeling set in. I continued to worshipping with my hands raised, just not quite as high or boisterously.. Overall it just really gave me a new perspective for all of the people who attend our church for the first time. Eric once again delivered a fantastic message that stepped on my toes. He taught about humanism and how it has seeped into our churches, how we frequently live to glorify ourselves instead of God. Ouch! However painful to hear, it was a much needed heartfelt sermon.

After the sermon was over, we headed out to find the beach and a spot to eat lunch. After eating our yummy, healthy lunches packed by Mrs.Nancy, we had a quick discussion about what we had learned that morning. PT shared a few points with us and then asked us all to please consider what Eric had said during his alter call that morning while we enjoyed the beach. I was exhausted from the previous couple days.. so while most of the others enjoyed the ocean, I layed on the beach for a while and reflected what I had learned that morning before eventually drifting off into a much needed nap... I eventually made it down to the ocean and let that salty goodness soak into my skin and hair :)


This is just a neat picture of my friend Tyler's toes.. he has such cute toes for a man xD


Lyn and I being silly on the way back to the conference after our hair had dried from the ocean :)


some cute little flowers we found in the church parking lot haha
After we made it back from the beach, we were all hungry and once again God provided as our friends (The Hales) paid for our dinner! They are such a sweet family and truly a blessing to our experience. After dinner we wandered back over to the church even though we were about 30 minutes early.. we all sat in a large circle in the grass and once again reflected on what God was saying to us.. we discussed the alter call that PT had asked us to think about, and spent some time praying. After a while, Eric walked by and stopped for a few minutes to talk to us. He ended up joining us in prayer and praying over us as a group. Eric taught a very fascinating lesson that night about dinosaurs! I would love to tell y'all all about it.. but he covered alot of stuff! These are the basics- God made dinosaurs. Dinosaurs were on the ark. In fact, there might still be some dinosaurs that still exist today! Eric went in to depth and explained to us stories that align with the teachings of the bible, and how the words "dragon" and "dinosaur" have been intermingled throughout history. Now when I say that he shared that some dinosaurs most likely still exist today, I don't mean creatures like lizards and alligators. He also taught us how the belief of dinosaurs living "millions" of years ago is being so adamantly taught in schools, and how children are constantly bombarded indirectly with thoughts of the big bang and evolution. Overall the entire weekend was an amazing experience, I'm so grateful I got to go and I look forward to many more God guided adventures in my life time!

Last picture of our adventure :) <3

Saturday, April 20, 2013

Progressive Posting!

Progressive Story! Every other sentence is from me, and then every other sentence is from Lyndsey ;) Purple is Sara.. Navy is Lyndsey... Hope you enjoy :3 haha!

Once upon a time. I had a tumor in my pinky toe. I went to the doctor and he washed it away. Just kidding, you can't wash tumors away. My sciaticas started acting up. So I bought a puppy. And he ate a baby bird. I cried just a little. But then I went and bought some ice cream. Too bad I'm lactose intolerant. So I had to travel to Africa to cure my allergy. There are lots of black people in Africa. I'm so tired of being white. So I decided to dye my skin with ink from the koo koo kachu beetle! That didn't work out too well, it made me a little splotchy. Kind of like American "tanning lotion". Which led me to the walmart pool isle. Except here in Africa it's just a mart, by a wall. Sometimes I wonder what it would be like to be a snowman. Basically for me, it would be like committing suicide. But at least I would die healthy with a carrot in my nose. Well I presume normal people would die too, if they had a carrot stuck in their nose. That's when I decided to tunnel to China using spoons. I'm not quite sure what I was thinking at the time.. 100 years and 8934759726390 plastic spoons later, I am still digging. But at least I will have a good story to tell to my great grandchildren... if I ever make it out of Africa. Apparently people who can't have dairy products live A LOT longer that normal humans. I just really like sushi. I can smell it already.. oh wait, that's just me. I really need a bath. A milk bath. It's hot in here, I really wish I had a fan. And some legs.. did I mention I don't have legs?  A crab has become my favorite living creature. When I feel like I'm dreaming, he pinches me. I've learned to never mess with the claw. Haven't you ever seen Toy Story?! I don't like to scare children. But I'm feeling rather delusional at the moment.. if I had a child,  I would scare it. But I kind of feel like throwing up.. so I won't. Is that a mexican mariachi band I hear?! Or just the sound of policeman coming to arrest me? Eh, either way, I'm going to drink all of their milk. Because I'm secretly a cow. But SHHHMOOOO don't tell anyone! Just don't drink milk, because the parachuter's will fall on your head. I can taste the alien space beam now, peace n blessins! 

Wednesday, April 17, 2013

Beautiful Existence

have you ever had to make a decision
where you just didn't know what to do?
a person's words told you one thing
but their actions showed the truth

my heart is in my stomach
my tears have all run dry
your emotions took a plummet
I knew it wasn't a lie

the depth you were admitting
inside your attention cries
all the help you could be getting
beyond my insufficient tries

a good friend tries to talk you out of it
a true friend sees beyond
you no longer find me fit
but at least you are not gone

your life is worth more than you realise
I couldn't force you to see through the lies
your existence is beautiful in my eyes
someday you'll experience life's highs<3

-SaraKate

Monday, April 15, 2013

You Might Be The Daughter Of A Taxidermist IF....

You Might Be The Daughter Of A Taxidermist IF....

..your boyfriends have an above average fear of your father, because he can not only shoot them- but then mount them and display them on a wall for future ridicule..

..you know that "stop-rot" has medical purposes, and your dad has joked about applying it to your infected ear piercing...

..there are taxidermy magazines around your office and living room..

.. you notice mounts in other people's houses and in restaurants, pick out all of the imperfections and think "my daddy can do it better"..

..your dad has ever asked where you got your eyeshadow from because the colors are the perfect shade for fish scales...

.. know the UPS man on a first name basis..

.. "stuffing a turkey" has double meaning in your house..

..you have ever helped skin an animal..

.. you've ever had to bandage daddy's scalpel oriented "boo-boos"..

..you've ever helped take close up pictures of an animal to use as a mounting reference..

..your dad can sew better than you can..

..when peroxide is on sale you stock up because daddy needs it to bleach skulls..

..you've ever played with glass eyeballs..

..you can traumatize people simply with the answer to "and what does your dad do for a living?"..

..you've ever helped play "tetris" with a mount(s) to get them into a box so they can be shipped..

..when the largest freezer your family owns has no "food" in it...

..when 9 out of 10 messages on the answering machine are "bubba" wanting to get something mounted..

..you've heard way too many dumb jokes from people about mounting people they don't like..

..when you hear the word "rack" the first thing you think of is antlers..

... you're proud that your dad is a sanitary, polite taxidermist who doesn't stink, still has all of his teeth, doesn't talk like he's from the back woods of Alabama, doesn't cape anything on your kitchen table and doesn't contaminate your house haha <3

This was over a year ago.. but still, you get the general idea.. deer ear to be added to form ;)


All Consuming Pain

Pain takes over. If fills my bones, slows my life. My heart becomes a distant flutter, my eyelids become leaden weights. My thoughts become erratic, no desire to think. There's a deep, dull throb in my brain. The tension in my neck is consuming, it pulls me in and swallows me. Stillness brings pain. Movement brings pain. The muscles in my face are contracting, forcing my eyes to see. The muscles in my head are reacting, forcing me to release. Joints are creaking with movement, cries for me to hear their discomfort. The blood in my head is whooshing. The laughter in the library is increasing. The light from the window is beating. A pounding chorus of aches and pains, rising and falling, singing and screaming. The corners of my body are fighting to be heard. I hurt here! No, I hurt more over here! It slowly creeps up my chest, ribs creak. My breathing is weak. Shallow breaths hurt, deep breaths hurt more. Muscles bunch and release. Time to move again. It kisses and lures, seducing with all consuming distraction. Sharp inhale, random streak of pain through my stomach. Breathe in, breathe deep, release. Constant battle raging inside. Extra energy is always required. The energy to accomplish the task, and the energy to hold the pain at bay.

Friday, April 12, 2013

Word Challenge Poem!


The votes are in! The words have been chosen! I proudly announce to you-
*insert drum roll here*
THE "WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE WORD?" CHALLENGE!
 
For those of you who don't know, recently on my facebook status, I asked everyone to share their favorite word.. claiming that I would then use ALL of the words in a poem.. the folowing section is the words that I was given to work with.. (and I added definitions to some of the odd ones haha)
 
 
*bumptious- offensively self-assertive, *lackadaisical- idle or indolent especially in a dreamy way, *grace, *ambivalent- uncertain or unable to decide about what course to follow, *savanners, *shenanigans- reckless or malicious behavior that causes discomfort or annoyance in others, *discombobulated, *"the clothes make the man", *potato, *beautiful, *scrumdidilyumpsiouse- really delicious or really marvelous, *supercalifragilisticexpialidocious- atoning for educability through delicate beauty, *pneumonoultramicroscopicsilicovolcanoconiosis- a factitious word alleged to mean 'a lung disease caused by the inhalation of very fine silica dust, causing inflammation in the lungs', *ashla, *platypus, *badonkadonk- buttocks of exceptional quality and bounce, *"Brandon Beckleheimer is awesome"
 
 
 "The Clothes Make The Man"

Once upon a time
In a land nearly far away
A platypus and potato
Went out to play
 
The discombobulated couple
Decided to blow a bubble
It was not very supple
Because they had no lips
 
In a lackadaisical haze
At Savanners they decided to gaze
They found her rather bumptious
And her pneumonoultramicroscopicsilicovolcanoconiosis 
To be scrumdidilyumpsiouse
 
Next in the line of grace
Was Ashla's beautiful face
Her shenanigans were precocious
And caused them to exclaim, "supercalifragilisticexpialidocious!"
 
They decided to play with an opossum
In their ambivalent phase
He told them that Brandon Beckleheimer is awesome...
Just look at how much his badonkadonk weighs!
 
So they recruited him for their clan
And ironically named it "The Clothes Make The Man"
 
THE END :3
 
 -SaraKate

 


Thursday, April 11, 2013

Lyrical Letter :)


Some of my very favorite things- all wrapped up together! Words, music, and people that I love! This is a letter that I wrote back at Valentines day... and every single phrase is lyrics from songs! It was very challenging.. hope you enjoy :) 

Hey Sweetie,
Let me riddle you a ditty, it's just an itty bitty,
little thing on my mind…
I've never opened up to anyone. You come around and
the armor falls. You take my hand and drag me, head
first, fearless. You light my heart up baby, like a matchstick.
Time square can’t shine as bright as you, I swear it’s true.
You lift my feet off the ground and spin me around. You
make me crazier, crazier. You’ve got a fast car and I want
a ticket to anywhere, maybe we make a deal…maybe together
we can get somewhere. Everything you do and the words you
say, it all takes my breath away. You think I'm pretty without
any make-up on. You are my sunshine, my only sunshine. I
know you get me, so I let my walls come down. I'm all in,
nothing left to hide, I've fallen harder than a landslide. If you
want me never to leave you, just tell me no lies. 'Cause I know
that you feel me somehow. No one gets me like you do.
You make me smile, please stay for a while now.

We all have a story, of adolescence and all its glory.
So you were never a saint, and I’ve loved in shades of wrong.
We learn to live with the pain 'cause everybody has a past.
I've forgiven myself for the mistakes I've made. I came to
my senses, letting go of my defenses, there's no way I'm giving up
this time. I'm right here, I'm not losing you this time. Lights will
guide you home, and I will try to fix you. If I could walk on water,
if I could tell you what's next. I'd make you believe, I'd make
you forget. This is a state of grace. I need your grace to
remind me to find my own. All that I am, all that I ever
was, is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see.
Breathe in for luck, breathe in so deep, this air is blessed,
you share with me. And I look around and all I see,
is your happiness embracing me..
Oh Lord I'd be lost, but for the grace of God.
My oh my, you're so good-looking.
  I want to walk with you on a cloudy day in fields
where the yellow grass grows knee high.
Come away with me and we’ll kiss on a mountain top.
I want you to want me,
I need you to need me,
I'd love you to love me.
I wanna feel the sunshine, shinin' down on me and you.
Feels like I'm falling and I, I'm lost in your eyes.
When you put your arms around me,
you let me know there's nothing in this world I can't do.
Put another dime in the Juke Box baby,
‘cus I love rock and roll,
so come take your time and dance with me.
Take my hand, I'll teach you to dance.
I'll spin you around, won't let you fall down.
Would you let me lead? You can step on my feet.
Give it a try, it'll be alright.
And I may feel like a fool,
but I’m the only one dancing with you.
If I lay here, if I just lay here,
would you lie with me and just forget the world?
Feel my heart, fall asleep to its beat-
sharing blankets and warm sheets.
I want to wake up to the rain falling on a tin roof
while I’m safe there in your arms.
Let’s get a motel and build a fort out of sheets.
I want get lost in some corner booth, cantina Mexico.
I want to dance to the static of an am radio.
Can we dance, real slow? Can I hold you, real close?
Lead me with strong hands, stand up when I can't,
don't leave me hungry for love.
You'll be my William, I'll be your Kate..living like a fairytale.
Just a boy and a girl trying to take on the world,
one kiss at a time.We want to get caught
in the middle of a very happy ending,
let's see what we've got, let's give it a shot.
I don't quite know how to say how I feel.
Those three words are said too much, they're not enough.
I thought I knew what love was but I didn’t have a clue.
I know that if we give this a little time,
it'll only bring us closer to the love we wanna find.
You just might be the one
I've been waiting for my whole life.
It's never felt so real, no, it's never felt so right.
There's no taking back what we've got, it’s too strong,
we've had each other's back for too long.
There's no breaking up this time.
I just feel complete when you're by my side.
If it's love and we decide that it's forever,
no one else could do it better.
Forever is a long time,
but I wouldn't mind spending it by your side.
I'm not in it to win it, I'm in it for you.
When the sun shines, we’ll shine together,
told you I’d be here forever,
said I’d always be your friend so you know
I’m gonna stick it out to the end.
If you can wait 'til I get home,
then I swear to you that we can make this last.
Don’t you worry about the distance,
I’m right here if you get lonely, give this song another listen.
‘Cus miles don’t mean anything.
Inhale, breathe steady, exhale,
like you're ready, if you're ready or not.
Ready or not?











     

     

    Some old stuff, Some new stuff, Some broken stuff, Some true stuff!

    This is the stuff.. that comes from broken hearts and broken dreams...
    People always ask me why I'm so happy, how I can be so cheerful.. this doesn't seem like a post about joy or happiness at first.. so make sure you read the whole thing ;)
    "For without pain there can be no pleasure, without sadness there can be no happiness. Without misery there can be no beauty. And without these, life is endless, hopeless, doomed and damned.”
    ― Harlan Ellison
    
    ~Walls~

    walls in place
    firmly laced
    with lies, regrets and wishes

    there to deflect
    didn't want you to connect
    just trying to protect
    my heart

    with a slow, taunting seep
    stealthy emotions ran deep
    I never intended to let you in

    in my silly little daze
    love was all I craved
    had myself believing that you might actually need me
    conceited, I know
    someday I'll muster the strength to let you go

    with these ever changing conditions
    and your ever changing mind
    frequently inquiring
    the truth is hard to find

    patience is not my state
    can't persuade the hands of fate
    maybe for love
    it is too late

    walls in place
    firmly laced
    with lies, regrets and wishes

    -SaraKate



    ~Ambivalence~

    I sit and ponder
    the contradictions of my mind
    perplexed, truly quite puzzled
    was it truth that you shared with me?
    was everything riddled with lies?

    memories quickly flicker
    like an old movie reel
    can't even begin to express the way it feels
    some images are welcome
    others get shoved aside
    forgot to buckle my seat belt
    on this roller coaster ride

    sweet, little memories
    drift slowly by
    the comforting warmth of your fingers
    laced through mine

    new memories come
    not so sweet
    reminding of times
    I never wish to repeat
    hot, salty tears
    quickly streaming down
    pail, fragile cheeks
    times when your silence
    was with me for weeks

    some memories
    harder to classify
    thick tangle of emotions
    I resist the urge to sigh
    across the room connection
    your crystal blue eyes
    almost impossible to despise
    my heart falters
    skipping beats

    some days I miss you
    some days not at all
    guess it doesn't matter
    I should just forget about it all
    no reason to live in the past
    this I definitely know
    for some reason or another
    my heart refuses to let you go

    are you Prince Charming?
    is there someone else?

    my excitement is building
    for whoever you shall be

    the moment you sweep me off my feet
    I will conquer this ambivalence in me

    -SaraKate
    ~Broken & Beautiful~
    they told me
    they warned me
    they judged me
    they scorned me
     
    I heard
    I denied
    I loved
    I cried
     
    he knew
    he played
    he wooed
    he lied
     
    I'm broken
    I'm bruised
    I'm damaged
    I'm used
     
    HE's forgiving
    HE's redeeming
    HE's loving
    HE's healing
     
    -SaraKate
    *HE= Jesus Christ, Emmanuel, The Bread of Life!
    
    Because in the end- really only "One Things Remains" <3
    One of my very favorite songs! Check it out :)
    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GoYgi0sdOqc

    Psalm 34:18 (HCSB)

    18 The Lord is near the brokenhearted;
    He saves those crushed in spirit.



    


    Sincerely,
    -Your broken, healing, loved and kneeling SaraKate <3

    Rain On The World With Me

    Rain on the World With Me

    Resounding Crunch
    Pretzels I Munch
    Chin Resting Upon My Left Knee
    Train Wants To "Marry Me"
    Theory Of A Deadman
    It's "Not Meant To Be"
    Skullcandy And Eardrum Kiss
    Music Means The World To Me

    Lightning Bolt
    Bright And Fierce
    Electricity Snatched From Me

    Darkness Surrounds
    Thunder Growls
    Bass That Shakes And Rattles

    Ear Buds Removed
    Attention Glued
    My Gaze Tickling The Window

    Drip
    Drop
    Drip Drip
    Drop
    A Melodie Softly Ringing
    Quite Entranced
    I Sit In Awe
    Of Nature Hypnotically Singing

    How Did I Barely Notice Before
    This Free Display Of Beauty ?
    Twirling And Singing
    Laughter Ringing
    Rejoicing With Unknown Praise
    Some Appear Weary
    Sad, Almost Dreary
    And Yet Still
    They Are Dancing Along

    Drip
    Drop
    Drip Drip
    Drop
    A Melodie Softly Ringing
    Quite Entranced
    I Sit In Awe
    Of Nature Hypnotically Singing

    Shouldn't We All Be
    Like The Rain Drops I See
    Quenching The Thirst Of The Undeserved ?
    When The World Is Dry
    Cracked With Need
    Eventually
    Rain Always Relieves

    Drip
    Drop
    Drip Drip
    Drop
    Trickle
    Splash
    Sooth

    Some Are Large
    Some Are Tiny
    Drip
    Splat
    Ting
    All A Purpose They Serve
    Every Single One
    Gorgeous And Worthy
    Of The Task They Have Received

    Come With Me
    To Twirl And Sing
    For The Same Task
    We Have Been Given
    I Must At Least Try
    To Quench The Thirst
    Of This World I Live In

    Drip
    Drop
    Drip Drip
    Drop
    Trickle
    Splash
    Sooth

    So Many Broken Hearts
    Faces That Despise Their Own Reflection
    Scars And Bruises
    Inside And Out
    Many Shapes And Sizes
    They Are Precious
    All Are Loved
    Just Need Someone To Show It

    Drip
    Drop
    Drip Drip
    Drop
    Trickle
    Splash
    Sooth
    Love And Compassion
    Mercy And Healing

    Would You Please,
    Come Rain On The World With Me ?

    -SaraKate



    Colossians 3:12-15(HCSB)

    12 Therefore, God’s chosen ones, holy and loved, put on heartfelt compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness, and patience, 13 accepting one another and forgiving one another if anyone has a complaint against another. Just as the Lord has forgiven you, so you must also forgive. 14 Above all, put on love—the perfect bond of unity. 15 And let the peace of the Messiah, to which you were also called in one body, control your hearts. Be thankful.