Unsaid

the anticipation of acceptance
the ache for a pounding heart
the comfort in the presence
healing before you start

the parting of full lips
the panting of exhausted lungs
the unspoken feelings expressed every trip
that could never leave my tongue

the peace in the middle of pain
the eye of a hurricane
the edge of going insane
it's like trying to drown rain

the steady thrum of life
the discovery of beauty within
the tugs of pleasure and strife
a fine layer of moisture on skin

the intoxication
the desire
the dread

the pulse in my ears
the ache in my head

a beauty that cannot fully be said

-SaraKate

Quote Fetish

"Maybe our favorite quotations say more about us than about the stories and people we're quoting."
-John Green

Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting;
but a woman who fears the LORD is to be praised.
Proverbs 31:30

"Stop signs with white lines around them are optional"
-Hannah Terrebonne

"People may not remember exactly what you did, or what you said, but they will always remember how you made them feel"

-Unknown

 "The best thing about a picture is that it never changes, even when the people in it do."
-Andy Warhol

"I'm impossible to forget, but I'm hard to remember."
-Claire Colburn (Elizabethtown)

"Rock bottom is good solid ground, and a dead end street is just a place to turn around." 

-Buddy Buie and J.R. Cobb, "Rock Bottom"

"Happiest are the people who give most happiness to others."
-Denis Diderot

"Imperfection is beauty, madness is genius and it's better to be absolutely ridiculous than absolutely boring."
— Marilyn Monroe (Marilyn: Her Life in Her Own Words)

Real Eyes
Realize
Real Lies

"Don't find fault. Find a remedy." ~Henry Ford

"Everyone is a genius, but if you judge a fish on its ability to climb a tree, it will live its whole life believing it is stupid."
-Einstein

"To let go isn’t to forget, not to think about, or ignore. It doesn’t leave feelings of anger, jealousy, or regret. Letting go isn’t about winning or losing. It’s not about pride and it’s not about how you appear, and it’s not obsessing or dwelling on the past. Letting go isn’t blocking memories or thinking sad thoughts, and doesn’t leave emptiness, hurt, or sadness. It’s not about giving in or giving up. Letting go isn’t about loss and it’s not about defeat. To let go is to cherish the memories, but to overcome and move on. It is having an open mind confidence in the future. Letting go is learning and experiencing and growing. To let go is to be thankful for the experiences that made you laugh, made you cry, and made you grow. It’s about all that you have, all that you had, and all that you will soon gain. Letting go is having the courage to accept change, and the strength to keep moving. Letting go is growing up."

"Don't waste time telling people what you are doing or what you are going to do. Results have a way of informing the world."
-Unknown

"Some music needs air. Roll your window down."
-Elizabethtown

"Be courteous to all, but intimate with few, and let those few be well tried before you give them your confidence."
-George Washington

"Some of us think holding on makes us strong, but sometimes it is letting go.”
— Herman Hesse

"That's always seemed so ridiculous to me, that people want to be around someone because they're pretty. It's like picking your breakfeast cereals based on color instead of taste."
-John Green (Paper Towns)

“I can’t explain what I mean. And even if I could, I’m not sure I’d feel like it." (The Catcher In the Rye)

"A day without laughter is a day wasted."
-Charlie Chaplin

"At some point, you just pull off the Band-Aid, and it hurts, but then it's over and you're relieved."
-John Green (Looking for Alaska)

“It is better to keep your mouth closed and let people think you are a fool than to open it and remove all doubt.”

-Mark Twain

"If every word I said could make you laugh, I'd talk forever..."
-Unknown

"Trying to forget someone you loved with all your heart, is like trying to remember someone you've never met!"

"You fight like a married couple, you talk like best friends, you flirt like first loves, and protect each other like brother and sister, obviously its meant to be."

Ask me why I keep on loving you when it's clear that you don't feel the same way for me... the problem is that as much as I can't force you to love me, I can't force myself to stop loving you.
~Author Unknown

"I demolish my bridges behind me...then there is no choice but to move forward."
-Firdtjof Nansen

“Think of the long view of life, not just what's going to happen today or tomorrow. Don't give up what you most want in life for something you think you want now.”
-Elder Richard G. Scott

Landon: What'd you tell your father?
Jamie: The truth. I just left you out of it.
(A Walk to Remember)

"I am doing things that are true to me. The only thing I have a problem with is being labeled."
-Johnny Depp

Giving up doesn't always mean you are weak; sometimes it means that you are strong enough to let go.
~Author Unknown

“Really great people make you feel that you, too, can become great.”
-Mark Twain

"For beautiful eyes, look for the good in others; for beautiful lips, speak only words of kindness; and for poise, walk with the knowledge that you are never alone."
-Audrey Hepburn

“You don’t write because you want to say something, you write because you’ve got something to say.”
-F. Scott Fitzgerald

“We enjoy warmth because we have been cold. We appreciate light because we have been in darkness. By the same token, we can experience joy because we have known sadness.”
-David Weatherford

“I speak to everyone in the same way, whether he is the garbage man or the president of the university.”
― Albert Einstein

“It’s the words I’ve never written that say the most about myself.”
-Flogging Molly

"If someone were to harm my family or a friend or somebody I love, I would eat them. I might end up in jail for 500 years, but I would eat them."
-Johnny Depp

“Stability was overrated. Crises and adventures, on the other hand, could actually teach you something.”
- Sarah Addison Allen

"I'm pretty, but I'm not beautiful. I sin, but I'm not the devil. I'm good, but I'm not an angel."
-Marilyn Monroe

Jamie: [after she and Landon keep switching the radio station] Forty-two.
Landon: "Forty-two", what do you-what do you mean "forty-two"?
Jamie: Forty-two is "Befriend somebody I don't like". It's a to-do list I have.
Landon: What, like getting a new personality?
Jamie: Spend a year in the Peace Corps, make a medical discovery...
Landon: That's ambitious.
Jamie: ...Be in two places at once, get a tattoo.
Landon: What's number one?
Jamie: I'd tell you, but then I'd have to kill you.
(A Walk to Remember)

"How many legs does a dog have, if you call the tail a leg? Four. Calling a tail a leg doesn’t make it a leg."
-Abraham Lincoln

"So I walked back to my room and collapsed on the bottom bunk, thinking that if people were rain, I was drizzle and she was a hurricane."
-John Green (Looking for Alaska)

"Let me tell you this: if you meet a loner, no matter what the tell you, it's not because the enjoy solitude. It's because they have tried to blend into the world before, and people continue to disappoint them." - -Jodi Picoult

"I never fall apart, because I never fall together."
-Andy Warhol

"Good judgment comes from experience, and experience comes from bad judgment."
-Barry LePatner

“Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away.”
― Maya Angelou

"Jealousy is simply and clearly the fear that you do not have value. Jealousy scans for evidence to prove the point - that others will be preferred and rewarded more than you. There is only one alternative - self-value. If you cannot love yourself, you will not believe that you are loved. You will always think it's a mistake or luck. Take your eyes off others and turn the scanner within. Find the seeds of your jealousy, clear the old voices and experiences. Put all the energy into building your personal and emotional security. Then you will be the one others envy, and you can remember the pain and reach out to them."
~Jennifer James


"Wars are not won by evacuations."
- Winston Churchill

Ms. Garber: Mr. Carter, are you trying to be bad at this?
Landon: Nah, it just comes naturally.
(A Walk to Remember)

"Me, I'm dishonest, and you can always trust a dishonest man to be dishonest. Honestly, it's the honest ones you have to watch out for."
-Johnny Depp

“But better to be hurt by the truth than comforted with a lie.”
― Khaled Hosseini

"Either write something worth reading or do something worth writing."
-Benjamin Franklin

“In order to be irreplaceable one must always be different.”
-Coco Chanel

"Keep on going, and the chances are that you will stumble on something, perhaps when you are least expecting it. I never heard of anyone ever stumbling on something sitting down."
- Charles F. Kettering

"People say I make strange choices, but they're not strange for me. My sickness is that I'm fascinated by human behavior, by what's underneath the surface, by the worlds inside people."
-Johnny Depp

"The cure for boredom is curiosity. There is no cure for curiosity."
-Ellen Parr

"Nothing that’s worthwhile is ever easy. Remember that."
-Nicholas Sparks (Message in a Bottle)

“The only reason for time is so that everything doesn't happen at once.”
-Albert Einstein

"No one can make you feel inferior without your consent."
-Eleanor Roosevelt

“You should have to pass an IQ test before you breed. You have to take a driving test to operate vehicles and an SAT test to get into college. So why don't you have to take some sort of test before you give birth to children? When I am President, that's the first rule I will institute."
-Marilyn Manson

“One person's crazyness is another person's reality.”
-Tim Burton

"Books are the ultimate dumpees: put them down and they’ll wait for you forever; pay attention to them and they always love you back."
— John Green (An Abundance of Katherines)

"No one gossips about other people’s secret virtues."
-Bertrand Russell

"It's not that I'm so smart, it's just that I stay with problems longer."
- Albert Einstein

“I try not to look at it that way. Being white. I don't wake up every day and look in the mirror, 'Oh. I'm white'.”
-Eminem

"I don’t know the key to success, but the key to failure is trying to please everybody."
-Bill Cosby

“Getting over a painful experience is much like crossing monkey bars. You have to let go at some point in order to move forward.”
-C.S. Lewis

"Saints are sinners who kept on going."
- Robert Louis Stevenson

"When you feel like giving up, remember why you held on for so long in the first place."
-Unknown

“The only gossip I'm interested in is things from the Weekly World News - 'Woman's bra bursts, 11 injured'. That kind of thing.”
-Johnny Depp

"Better to write for yourself and have no public, than to write for the public and have no self."
-Cyril Connolly

"Fight for your opinions, but do not believe that they contain the whole truth, or the only truth."
-Charles A. Dana

"Clouds come floating into my life, no longer to carry rain or usher storm, but to add color to my sunset sky. "
-Rabindranath Tagore

"The truth isn't always beauty, but the hunger for it is."
-Nadine Gordimer

"I do my best because I'm counting on you counting on me."
-Maya Angelou

 

"Raise your words, not your voice. It is rain that grows flowers, not thunder."

-Rumi

 

"Great minds discuss ideas; average minds discuss events; small minds discuss people"

-Eleanor Roosevelt

 

"I don't know a perfect person, I only know flawed people who are still worth loving"

-John Green

 

"Use what talents you possess, the woods would be very silent if no birds sang except those that sang best."

-Henry Van Dyke

 

"She had a lively, playful disposition which delighted in anything ridiculous"

-Pride and Prejudice

 

"We can complain because rose bushes have thorns, or rejoice because thorn bushes have roses."

-Abraham Lincoln

 

"I believe in the sun even when it is not shining, I believe in love even when I cannot feel it, I believe in God even when He is silent."

-A Holocaust Victim

 

"When I stand before God at the end of my life, I would hope that I would not have a single bit of talent left, and could say, "I used everything You gave ne."

-Erma Bombeck

 

"Do what you feel in your heart to be right -- for you'll be criticized anyway."

-Eleanor Roosevelt

Unsuspecting

sometimes I crash into you, headfirst

pieces of you appear

a never ending desire, a thirst

stealing away my cheer


a streak of emotion

a shadow in the corner of my thoughts

a whirlwind of precaution

a trail of painful "connect the dots"


frequently caught in an unsuspecting place

like wrapped in another's embrace

or daydreaming off into space

music can almost always conjure your face


this heavy wall of memories

surrounding, suffocating, taunting

never knew that loving you 

could be so haunting


the shame of admitting

that after all this time

you are still capable

of wreaking havoc on my mind


-SaraKate

iWrite

I write,

just to pour out how I feel

no one is forced to listen

emotions I need to spill


I can spend sweet moments

lingering over precious thoughts

or endure the sting of painful atonements

as they flood from the crevices in which they were caught


I can mix myself any concoction

3 parts elation, 1 part pain

not sure of my destination

just trying to relieve my brain


I can alter all the endings

stir in a little more appeal

torturing myself with dreams

that will never become real


I could smile a pretty smile

and cover my pain with lies

but here I can express what you would find

if you cared enough to look deep into my eyes


now I don't want to confuse you

with deep emotional zeal

for the joy that I share

is quite true, and quite real


but pain still haunts my skin

and hurt still clouds my mind

can't keep it all within

so in writing, release I find


-Sara Katelyn

Creation Conference 2013

Whew. I have so much to say! I don't even know where to begin (; A couple weekends ago was one of the best experiences of my life. I would say it was the* best, but being born was a pretty great experience too (haha!) What was supposed to be a simple trip, Friday evening and part of the day Saturday- morphed into an awesome three day God experience..

Day One- The Journey Begins

This picture is probably not significant to any of you, but to me it's gorgeous :) We've been studying God's will for our life- and how that will is for us to glorify Him in EVERYTHING we do. Including what we listen to.. being a lover of music and coffee, this picture warms my heart<3
PS- this is inside of our church van...

After approximately two and a half hours riding in the van.. we finally arrived! To an itsy bitsy church. Not what you were expecting? No, it wasn't what we were expecting either. We all just sat there, tummy's grumbling (it was 7 pm and we hadn't had dinner yet) for a minute, staring at this tiny church and wondering what kind of conference this was going to turn out to be. We soon discovered that we were 30 minutes early and there was a McDonald's right up the road... so away we went. 40 minutes later, we returned. Now I don't know if y'all have ever experienced this- but when a group of ten makes an entrance into a building that only seats about 100 people in the first place, your entrance does not go unnoticed. So, being the great comedian he is- Creation Today speaker Eric Hovind, from the stage, asked if there was anything he could provide for us.. possibly a watch? Needless to say, our punctuality was a standing joke for the rest of the weekend. ;) Eric immediately dove into God's word and shared truths with us regarding evolution and creation. Did you all know that according to evolution, we all came from an explosion of nothing? Then a couple million years later some rain(which also came from nothing) mixed with the dirt on earth(which also both came from nothing) and created something called primordial soup... that soup was then struck by lightning(which also came from nothing) and life began! Then mister soup found something to eat, and someone to reproduce with. Sound like a very likely story, right?! ;) ha! However, a lot of scientists still believe in the big bang theory. The main questions they can not answer revolve around time, space and matter. God answers all of these questions with 10 simple words in Genesis 1:1 "In the beginning God created the heavens and the earth." God created us all in the image of Himself (Genesis 1:27) and because satan hates God, he also hates us. Satan has used evolution and science as a huge lie to deter people from believing in God. This is a prime example of a quote by Adolf Hitler, "People are more likely to believe a big lie than a small one." This first night of the conference was mainly an introduction to set up a base of our understanding for the sessions to come on Saturday. Eric also shared some interesting statistics with us. For example- "75% of all children who were raised in Christian homes who attend public schools will reject their faith after the first year of college." A lot of these people begin to believe as Joe Blow Skeptic explains, "Religious belief is irrational because of the utter lack of evidence for God's existence." These statements break my heart. Evidence of the God of the universe is EVERYWHERE, if we can only get people to see beyond satan's lies.There are so many stars that every person on earth could own at least 11 trillion of them! For evolution to be true, 16,500 stars would have to be made every second for 13.4 billion years. Eric showed us many mind blowing things that debunk evolution/the big bang and point to intelligent design.

You can check out more about Eric and Creation Today at http://www.creationtoday.org/.

Night One- Making Memories

Not only did Eric explain how these rubber bands
are more effective when shot differently, but he
explained how this technique relates to our spiritual
journey. His rubber band shooting method requires
there to be more tension on one side of the band before
it is released(it really does work a TON better). This is
and example of how the spiritual side of our life should be
a lot more "tight" and relevant than the side of our life that
follows the instincts of our flesh. This concept comes from
Galatians 5:17 which says, "For the flesh desires what is against
the Spirit, and the Spirit desires what is against the flesh; they
are opposed to each other."

  These pictures are all products of the "McDonald's Experience" After Eric's first session on creation, we went to McDonald's for a snack.. Eric showed us all how to shoot rubber bands the most "scientifically" effective way...So of course a giant rubber band war broke out in the parking lot.. Mrs.Trish and I began collecting them ;) Less ammo= less chances we could get hit haha the other pictures are just from us sitting in the parking lot waiting for PT to finish talking so we could leave.. over all it was a great night of fellowship (:

Lyndsey, Savannah, Ashley and I got to share plenty of girl time and giggles in our hotel room.. We laid awake for quite a while and just talked about the things we had learned, and the amazing God that we serve :) I'm so grateful for these sweet life moments.

 

Day Two -The Journey Grows!

Our Group + Eric Hovind :)

The next day was even more impacting than the first, and God really spoke to all of our hearts. Eric taught about the humanistic worldview, which claims that life is about your own happiness. This really stuck out to alot of us, because as Christians, some of this worldview has crept into our churches. I know for me personally this really hit home. How many times do we consider what we can gain from a scenario instead of how it will glorify God? Eric also taught about the religion of atheism.. Mark 3:29 says "But whoever blasphemes against the Holy Spirit never has forgiveness,  but is guilty of an eternal sin." There was a challenge proposed on YouTube for atheists to deny the existence of the Holy Spirit... there are literally hundreds of videos of people claiming this belief. My heart broke. I'm not one for crying, but I cried. The Holy Spirit in me cried. Atheists claim that they are not a religion, yet in some places they hold service similar to "church" and have filed paperwork as a non-profit organization. I will never again defend God, because I was reminded that He is more than capable of defending Himself. However, I will still wholeheartedly defend and exclaim my faith in Him. After the sessions were over, we just weren't ready to leave. We were still hungry for more! God was there and we wanted to be where He was. God had touched us all in a way that was impossible to ignore. Several of us asked PT (our youth pastor) before we had even left the building, if we could follow Eric to the next city he would be teaching in, the very next day. We ended up in a circle in the grass, under a beautiful shade tree- praying. We thanked God for the choice He has given us, for the forgiveness He provides, for the opportunity to learn about Him. We thanked Him for revealing to us His truth that we need in our every day lives. We asked for His guidance. We asked for Him to bring comfort to the Lister family (a family friend of ours passed away the day before on our way to the conference.) We asked for Him to open the hearts and minds of the people we had to call home too, for Him to proceed us and clear the path for us to stay another night and relish in His presence. We received His peace. After we prayed, we all took turns calling home- to parents and people that were expecting us to be helping teach, run sound, and sing at church the following morning. One by one we were all eagerly cleared to stay another night, to follow Eric the next day, to absorb as much knowledge in God's presence as we could. We were ecstatic!

After the prayer I opened my eyes and this little guy had fallen on my leg.. about gave me a heart attack xD

As the day went on, we got to see God's providence over and over! By this time it was about 2 pm and once again we were all very hungry. Because we hadn't planned on staying another day, all of us had not brought money for food. We decided to all put our food money together and go from there. We ended up with $70. We then decided to visit McDonald's AGAIN haha and all ate lunch for a little over $17. We then drove to the next city, to find the church that Eric would be speaking at so that we could make hotel arrangements. We noticed a house that was very close to the church, so we decided to knock and see if they could offer any tips about the area... turns out it was the home of the assistant pastor! He shared with us that there is a great website call priceline and that we could probably get some nice hotel rooms on there for a good price.. he got out his laptop and helped us book rooms! We ended up with three "suites" for $40 each! However, for those of you who have used priceline before you know that they do not tell you what type of beds are in the rooms...but more about that later. Next we went to Publix with our remaining $52 to buy dinner. We all rallied together around the sales papers to discuss what we thought would be best. So, me being the extremely casual person that I am, was sitting in the middle of the floor in Publix with the sales papers spread on the floor and our group huddled around me. Soon a concerned employee wandered up to us because he thought that I was injured (seeing as how I'm extremely clumsy, it wasn't too far fetched haha!) We assured him that I wasn't hurt. He was curious and asked us if we were a Christian Group.. we eagerly replied YES and explained what God was doing in our lives. He continued on to his job and we continued gathering items to make wraps for dinner. A few minutes later, he came walking back by and dropped a $20 bill on top of the things in Mrs.Trish's arms "in the name of God!" (picture below) We had been very careful to pick out only foods that were necessity and foods that we could find coupons for... our total cost ended u being approximately $50. We then set off to find our hotel, which wasn't far from Publix. When we arrived we discovered that our rooms only had one queen bed in each of them.. this turned out to be slightly problematic. Now, for PT & Mrs.Trish's room it was fine because they share a bed. And for the boys room it would be find because we all had a recliner in our room and would move the extras into their room. However, four girls and one queen bed wasn't ideal. Turns out the upgrade to get a room with double beds was $20.. and we had just been blessed with $20! Praise God from Whom all blessings flow <3

Night Two

When we finally got all settled in our hotel room, and filled our tummy's with some yummy turkey& veggie wraps, we sat down to discuss the day. We poured over the scriptures that Eric had shared with us, we discussed them and we shared what God had revealed to us that day. 

This tiny coffee pot was just SO CUTE!
 and of course Lyndsey being the coffee addict that she is, had to buy some coffee creamer(;

The AC in our room kept blowing our curtains up! we couldn't turn the AC vents and we couldn't open the curtains without a ton of light getting in... scared us at first but then we got used to it and giggled about it (:

Day Three- Conviction, Beach, Dinosaurs!
This last day of our journey was just over all an adventure! Lyndsey's family decided to wake up early and drive over to join to hear Eric speak... God continued to provide for us, as they offered to bring us lunch! We also go up early Sunday morning and quickly packed our things before heading over to the church. We got there a little early because they provided breakfast.. and then we headed into the church to find some seats and get settled. Now, I personally, have attended the same church for my entire life. I'm very comfortable there and know almost every one... I help run the sound booth and frequently walk around the church grounds barefoot. So being at another church, to say the least, was an eye opener. Because of the spontaneous addition of another night to our trip, none of us had packed church clothes. So here we are, at a church we've never been, with very well dressed people that we have never met.. in jeans and t-shirts. So naturally we just slip into the back of the church and go unnoticed, right? Wrong! PT decided that we should sit on the second row! On top of that, very few people greeted us, and when the worship part of the service rolled around, I found myself feeling rather awkward. I love worshipping my Jesus, I close my eyes, tilt my head back, raise my hands and sing. I don't have a very good voice, but I don't care.. because God made me and my voice and He finds it beautiful no matter if it's up to the rest of the worlds standards. Anyways, about halfway through the first song, I realized that other in the congregation were not raising there hands.. and the awkward feeling set in. I continued to worshipping with my hands raised, just not quite as high or boisterously.. Overall it just really gave me a new perspective for all of the people who attend our church for the first time. Eric once again delivered a fantastic message that stepped on my toes. He taught about humanism and how it has seeped into our churches, how we frequently live to glorify ourselves instead of God. Ouch! However painful to hear, it was a much needed heartfelt sermon.

After the sermon was over, we headed out to find the beach and a spot to eat lunch. After eating our yummy, healthy lunches packed by Mrs.Nancy, we had a quick discussion about what we had learned that morning. PT shared a few points with us and then asked us all to please consider what Eric had said during his alter call that morning while we enjoyed the beach. I was exhausted from the previous couple days.. so while most of the others enjoyed the ocean, I layed on the beach for a while and reflected what I had learned that morning before eventually drifting off into a much needed nap... I eventually made it down to the ocean and let that salty goodness soak into my skin and hair :)


This is just a neat picture of my friend Tyler's toes.. he has such cute toes for a man xD

Lyn and I being silly on the way back to the conference after our hair had dried from the ocean :)

some cute little flowers we found in the church parking lot haha

After we made it back from the beach, we were all hungry and once again God provided as our friends (The Hales) paid for our dinner! They are such a sweet family and truly a blessing to our experience. After dinner we wandered back over to the church even though we were about 30 minutes early.. we all sat in a large circle in the grass and once again reflected on what God was saying to us.. we discussed the alter call that PT had asked us to think about, and spent some time praying. After a while, Eric walked by and stopped for a few minutes to talk to us. He ended up joining us in prayer and praying over us as a group. Eric taught a very fascinating lesson that night about dinosaurs! I would love to tell y'all all about it.. but he covered alot of stuff! These are the basics- God made dinosaurs. Dinosaurs were on the ark. In fact, there might still be some dinosaurs that still exist today! Eric went in to depth and explained to us stories that align with the teachings of the bible, and how the words "dragon" and "dinosaur" have been intermingled throughout history. Now when I say that he shared that some dinosaurs most likely still exist today, I don't mean creatures like lizards and alligators. He also taught us how the belief of dinosaurs living "millions" of years ago is being so adamantly taught in schools, and how children are constantly bombarded indirectly with thoughts of the big bang and evolution. Overall the entire weekend was an amazing experience, I'm so grateful I got to go and I look forward to many more God guided adventures in my life time!

Last picture of our adventure :) <3

Progressive Posting!

Progressive Story! Every other sentence is from me, and then every other sentence is from Lyndsey ;) Purple is Sara.. Navy is Lyndsey... Hope you enjoy :3 haha!

Once upon a time. I had a tumor in my pinky toe. I went to the doctor and he washed it away. Just kidding, you can't wash tumors away. My sciaticas started acting up. So I bought a puppy. And he ate a baby bird. I cried just a little. But then I went and bought some ice cream. Too bad I'm lactose intolerant. So I had to travel to Africa to cure my allergy. There are lots of black people in Africa. I'm so tired of being white. So I decided to dye my skin with ink from the koo koo kachu beetle! That didn't work out too well, it made me a little splotchy. Kind of like American "tanning lotion". Which led me to the walmart pool isle. Except here in Africa it's just a mart, by a wall. Sometimes I wonder what it would be like to be a snowman. Basically for me, it would be like committing suicide. But at least I would die healthy with a carrot in my nose. Well I presume normal people would die too, if they had a carrot stuck in their nose. That's when I decided to tunnel to China using spoons. I'm not quite sure what I was thinking at the time.. 100 years and 8934759726390 plastic spoons later, I am still digging. But at least I will have a good story to tell to my great grandchildren... if I ever make it out of Africa. Apparently people who can't have dairy products live A LOT longer that normal humans. I just really like sushi. I can smell it already.. oh wait, that's just me. I really need a bath. A milk bath. It's hot in here, I really wish I had a fan. And some legs.. did I mention I don't have legs?  A crab has become my favorite living creature. When I feel like I'm dreaming, he pinches me. I've learned to never mess with the claw. Haven't you ever seen Toy Story?! I don't like to scare children. But I'm feeling rather delusional at the moment.. if I had a child,  I would scare it. But I kind of feel like throwing up.. so I won't. Is that a mexican mariachi band I hear?! Or just the sound of policeman coming to arrest me? Eh, either way, I'm going to drink all of their milk. Because I'm secretly a cow. But SHHHMOOOO don't tell anyone! Just don't drink milk, because the parachuter's will fall on your head. I can taste the alien space beam now, peace n blessins! 

Beautiful Existence

have you ever had to make a decision
where you just didn't know what to do?
a person's words told you one thing
but their actions showed the truth

my heart is in my stomach
my tears have all run dry
your emotions took a plummet
I knew it wasn't a lie

the depth you were admitting
inside your attention cries
all the help you could be getting
beyond my insufficient tries

a good friend tries to talk you out of it
a true friend sees beyond
you no longer find me fit
but at least you are not gone

your life is worth more than you realise
I couldn't force you to see through the lies
your existence is beautiful in my eyes
someday you'll experience life's highs<3

-SaraKate